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i tried writing you a poem then i gave up cause fuck you fuck this fuck that fuck everything and i love you sorry im colder than i should be blunter vulgar older wiser im sorry i dont try hard enough im sorry i dont speak first sorry im writing a poem when it hasn't really been that long at all it just feels strange, not seeing you, talking to you, insulting you, touching you. it's not exactly poetry but fuck you, i love you.

that bitter, burning that chokes your chest the restless need for anger, stress the endless pain that stings your eyes the roaring hate, feel it rise. i don't want to feel this way and what i feel i'll never say i wont admit to jealousy 'till you admit that you see me. i'm scared you do, i'm scared you don't but until you do, you know i won't the heavy chest, and heavy sighs the furrowed brow, the smiling lies the swirling sound within your ears the pounding blood, and welling tears i admire the nature of the careless it makes them seem so fearless but as much as it may appear, that's just not me, i'm ruled by fear.